Not
Giving up
Giving 
In

SAYING GOOD BYE TOA CHAPTER  IN MY LIFE

AND SEEING WHAT IS NEXT

MY NEW ADVENTURE 

I have recently lost my grandma and then my Dad who abused me as well as being a dad.  I could just say give up everything I have but he would win after trying already to destroy my life.  But why should I, why give him in to him. 

I really miss my grandma, her birthday was  July 18.  Since my dad died I have had a good hair cut thd way I like it.  

I've been told that good memories are good to have because it shows you how much the person meant to you.  My good memories  of dad  is when he was on tablets to control his moods after being made to go to the doctors after the damage he caused to my nose.   

I feel that since dad has gone I can have my hair the way I want to.  Not the way subconsciously  he told meticulous to have it.  I feel that like Happy Potter films had "Lord Vlltmore the person who shall not be named"

That waslike that in my life especially  around my extended  family.  So any time he marlene sent me stuff I was supposed to send everything  back .  And unfortunately  I can not have his stuff in my house.  The resemblance  is too much for me or I just dont want  anything to do with him I know that he was my dad but?

With my grandma I have lots of happy memories  and that is happy and healthy. I feel freerer  know than before.

New beginnings

My grandma told me that her flat was her story and her life and that I should make my own life my own journey.   Like in my other pages be me find what I like and that is teaching myself electronics and astronomy and add my next adventure  to my website.  Show to myself that if I can teach myself to read then I can study and learn astronomy and how to makes magic with electronics.