Taking risks is sometimes not the right ones, but if we never try and explore things, we would never find out. It has taken me till now to find any hair that I feel comfortable with. The hairdressers helped by showed me some hairs that I did not know existed, and they also showed me styles that were there too. Brilliant 2 worlds, half my hair long and the back very short.
So my inner child loves long hair whilst the adult me had a very short hair style and I actually feel content. Normally I don't feel content.
Have fun with my hair and have lots of blondes with red and
Also for the first time I went girly shopping and both me and my daughter had fun .
My dad died in December last year and had s cremation in January. And until that day I did not realise that the problem with my hair was that I have only just remembered that my mother said we had to ask dads permission about having my hair cut. So I think that he was in control of what I had done to my hair.
I suppose parents chose what is best for their children and if you do not do what they expect or you go and have multiple coloured hair that they are not expectantly that and that you did not ask for permission then when return home the reaction is go to your bed or your grounded. That is what it felt like at home.
He was supposed to be in charge of everything and if you did not do what was expected of you or in my home nothing wrong at all then fire works or my brother getting beaten for no apparent reason. So deep down subconsciously I knew that I could not choose what I wanted since it was my hair.
I've had my hair cut very short and blonde and I do not know that I am growing it of not but my hair needs to be healthy. Sounds like he was in control of the whole house and the abuse too.