After I was around 7 years my school educationwent down hill. Every year I was tested by a physcologist who tested me every year because I was always , wonderring why I kept failing all my exams. No one new about the abuse that was going on behind the seams.
This always happened year after year and I have come to the conclusion to teach myself to read more books and learn everything I need on the internet.
Since my grandma has died I felt that I hadnt delt with my past around that time and I was missing all the back ground stuff that you learn in school. Also I am very dyslexic so with that as well I am going to overcome yet another hurdle.
I would to learn about gardening I love plants and astronomy and programming and as the Rabbi suggested take my time and face my fears.
You need to be very determind to change your life around and to me it is very worth while and needding to happen
I feel like I am lacking a lot of mis information about learn subjects. Also I think that it would give me more confidence, which I lack. My history knowledge is terrible but if no one talks to you as a child, and they do not talk to you about what histroic things that have happened in the past andthe things you should know, well I felt and feel very imbarrasse, because of the lack of knowledge that you are supposed to have.