My childhood was damaged my self esteem never there, you feel that you can never achieve anything never dreamed of doing anything. When you have been abused of any kind sometimes you cant see the light.
And because i never passed anything i did wonder what i would then I just existed thought that life would always be like this. I was very depressed no one new that though, I was very alone st school.
But because I was abused and had to be someone else we'll that was what it felt like
I was never ME as a child. Whose me someone else someone who had lost a childhood lost dreaming. And to add I'm dslyexic austic and in those days NO HELP. Nowadays there is tones if help . Anyway I now have found my way a little. Becoming rainbow lady I love colours.
How to heal take your time
God has helped alot. Still struggle thaz healed with God's guidance.
I believe that taking small steps writing down how you feel trying to stay positive helps. Yes it is hard but you can heal from the abuse that has happened to you. You need to heal your broken souls I.m doing all this and wearing my rainbow coloured clothes having rainbow coloured hair nails to my way that's ME
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