i have discovered that, my nine year self has not delt with the death of my papa and now since my grandmwa has died it has opened wounds that need dealing with. my rabbi is helping me to write down again all my anxieites thzt have come back and new ones. i might have to open my past at that point, in order to heal from the lost if my grandpap. i
i am to write down all of my panics includying learning to teach myself how to become a web sites designer and learning how to do my astronomy web sites.
also to learn to speak german? how to learn how to earn money.
i suppose when some tragedy happens whatever it is it effects us all differently. and my rabbi for the fistrt time regardless of my faith he is going to help me.